hmm..mi entire clique..and yana is back to square one again..but gals..no matter whenever u guys feel lonely..or vexed..or juz need a listening ear..don worrie..i promise i'll always be here..don worrie if u call at midnite..although most prob i'll be slping..i'll pick up the call when i feel the vibration..:)..hahaz..tats mi..i'll always be here for all mi frenz..:)..hahaz..hmm..now waiting for mi modem to be here..which will be next next tues..-.-"..hahaz..coz mi old modem is spoilt..then new com no modem..then have to put up with mi dad who hogs on com for the whole day..now mi dad after operation..mc for 1 whole mth..then some more he has to clear leave..so meaning to say until next year then he start to work..so no choice have to wait until mi new modem lor..mmmm..:)

THIS ENTRY IS DEDICATED SPECIALLY TO WEI TING AND IZYANA AND THE REST OF MI CLIQUE..wei ting arh..i didnt know i could be so xi xin u know..wahahaz..but still..get well soon okie??u know wad..ni shi xing fu de..realli!!shall tell u why next time..yana..don worrie..i'll always be here..ALWAYS..:)..if tats wad u wan then u have mi support!!but still..u do deserve it..everyone has their own right to find their happiness..but..still..ive to say tat the latest is not when u discover ur mistake..but itz when u chose to let ur mistake to cont..but if tats wad u realli wan..like ive said i support u!!:)..zoe..bee fang..li yun..anything..when u guys are down or wadever..can always find mi!!mi hp though not by mi side all the time..i'll certainly reply!!:)..wadever it is..i'll be here for ya guyz!!:)

i rmb smth said long ago..sometimes we have to put our ego down for smth which are worth more..theres this person who once asked mi before..issit too late for everything..i told him..tat late is better than never..the biggest mistake is not being late..the biggest mistake is never admitting ur mistake and refusing to correct it..hmmm..once again i feel tat im the stupidest person in the whole wide world..but all tat i wish tat happened..i told miself tat im thinking too much and maybe i truly am..think im having mood swings these few days..and i suddenly realised why are people arnd mi going to hospitals and having operations?mi dad juz went for his cateract operation last thurs..and mi grandma is going for operation this friday..:(..sometimes i wonder if im a jinx and i shld have even existed in the world at all..but anyway..wei ting is also having operation on wed..wishing u and mi grandma to have a successful operation..i know u all will be fine....i suddenly rmbed mi version of big big gal..i once said tat love is simple..hmm..i also said tat..following mi heart would be the rite way out..now im pondering over if it will be..hahaz..tats y i said tat i feel tat im the stupidest person in the whole wide world..im not noble..im not..i don wan to pretend to be someone whom i nv was..im nv tat gracious..

im a big big gal, in a big big world, its not a big big thing if u love mi. but too bad u don. u juz leave mi standing there all alone. all alone. in this world theres nth rite. neither is there smth wrong. it juz depends on how u see it. and how u react to it.

was reading mi past blog archives..then i realised..the mi now..dunno how come..became so stubborn..n i wanna fight for everything tat i wan..die die also wan fight..issit a good thing..?but..now im waiting for time to pass again..until theres no more expectations..then i'll say everything out..onli for the sake of i don wan to avoid anymore..i wan to face it..

a thousand years later..when im no longer arnd..maybe the world..tat world will rawks even more..hmmm..life's unpredictable..or maybe a year later or even tml..hahaz..all these times..nv there..when theres nth at all..it shld be clear to mi tat im juz one..maybe one day..i'll still fly away..

..and it rawks the world! hahaz..i guess the same cycle juz repeats every single year..;)

wwooooHHHOoooooOOOO!!!today is great!!:D

i am so hopelessly helpless..

ytd today n tml will be 4e6 chalet..went for ytd's bbq..actualli they have 2 days of bbq but i onli went for ytd..coz today supposedly mi lessons end at 5..but was released earlier for the second last lesson n in the end i was too tired tat i decided not to go for the last lecture..hmmm..the chalet was not bad..met up with li yun tanah merah mrt then saw xin yu also..then after watching a bit of home alone 4 i was dozing off..so went to take a scroll at changi beach with li yun..ehz..itz changi beach if im not wrong..then planes were taking off above our heads..then..hahaz..i started doing smth tats so dramatic..:P..hahaz..we set at the rocks..then saw a couple taking wedding photos..hahaz..mi n li yun talked a lot..after some time went back to chalet..then got fed up with some of the guys actualli..but overall the bbq was good..was also impressed by a few other guys..felt tat although still a bit childish..but more mature le..:)..then still saw planes flying by..i had a thinking in mi mind.....at nite looking at the planes n lying on the sand..looking at the ships far away..the scene shld be very pretty..but too bad i didnt do tat..i juz looked arnd for a moment when i was going home..throughout the whole day..i also realise tat i miss a lot a lot of things..n..im starting to think tat im the stupidest person who can ever exist in the whole wide world...

Attention to all 4e6 ppl!!Chalet is on 14-16..monday to wed..bbq is on monday..so take note okie??if any is reading..n btw..who wanna take cab at arnd..9.30-10 home??tell mi okie??:).."Sandra Templeton i love you and i will marry you!" gosh..cant get the sentence outta mi mind since juz now..finalli watched Big Fish dvd which i had wanted to watch since sec 3..the show's not bad..;)..oh..talking abt shows..i wanna watch tat chinese show la!!zai shuo yi ci wo ai ni..but broke already when next wk need to pay for chalet stuffs..:(..oh ya..then next friday for film appreciation class..guess wad..instead of watching moulin rouge..have to watch horrow films..i don mind all kinda films..but y muz it be horrow movies??!!HUH..japanese ones some more..SOBZ!!!!

HAPPIE BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YANA!!

hahaz..went out with zoe on wed..which is ytd to shop for yana's bday prezzie..then i saw clover leaf's seedlings selling at action city!!n i bought it home..then after reading the instructions then realised the chance of getting a four leaf clover is 1 over 100 thousand..wonder how come there r four leaf clover selling arnd also..hmm..but anyway..i still prefer to put in mi own hard work to get wad i wan!!:)..decided to try anyway..maybe i'll be the lucky one..;)..then today went out with zoe n yana again..sorta to celeb yana bday but we didnt do much except take neoprint n zoe went for sch, leaving mi n yana to shop arnd..Joke Of The Year:we took neoprints and after decorating it..as u know we have to select which pics r those tat we wanted rite..then while we tot it was processing we were wondering how come nv let us choose..then we read the instructions.."After decorating pls select the pics" with an arrow pointing to the side..then we went to the side..then realised we have to select it from a mini screen there!!but onli left 5 secs..then in the end we click click the arrow button to wad we wanted..n in the end the time is 0 n it selected the one which our 'choice' lies..wad we actualli wanted was the one beside it and some others..but not enough time..then the thingy selected THE ONE..i repeat again..THE ONE..when it came out..TADA!!the whole neoprint was so nice..all the photos r uniform..showing the same pattern..:)..so nice leh!!wa..nv ever seen such a nice one in mi entire life..then bought the same photo frames to frame it up..n itz standing on mi table now..:)..all the three of us will have exactly the same thing somewhere in our room..so sweet....

I FINALLI UNDERSTAND LE!!! FOLLOW THE HEART AND NOT THE MIND!! gosh..it took mi so long to understand..!! the inner turmoil was terrible..struggled for 2 wks n today i finalli got it..feelings is using ur heart..not the mind..follow ur heart..gen zhe gan jue zou..face it..don avoid it..i shld have onli used mi heart long ago and not both mi heart and the mind..make things so complicated and torturous for miself..but NOW I FINALLY GOT IT!! say i stubborn also can..going against practically everyone's thinkings..but..i wan to follow mi heart!!no matter how mani obstacles it faces..no matter how mani stabs it took..as long as it is wad it wans..and feel..i will follow it!!

i feel so tired....so tired....so tired....

didnt wan to be pushed far far away..juz like before..those r juz mi own speculations n i dunno wads on the mind..i don dare risk..for fear of ur hatred tat mite exist..

the thing will be sent..when i decided to on tat choice..

read the bk once again..lian yu..watched the vcd..seeing her leaving him in the rain..although itz juz a story..a qns ran thru mi mind..if onli she could be a little more selfish..i think they didnt have to part..they say gals have a lot of rights..i feel in love..both parties have a lot of rights too..the right to be jealous..the right to protect the person..the right to be selfish....he said he will wait..if shes willing to be selfish..to let him wait..tat nite he could have proposed to her..they would have been married..she wouldnt have to leave and die in the plane crash..sometimes..being more selfish..at the right time..is a good thing..can i follow mi heart..and ignore wads right or wrong..?

Sharon Lim -- greedy but easily contented; rational but impulsive; speak a lot but quiet; believe in things completely but have doubts running through the mind; think a lot but choose not to think at all; simple but complicated. to put it simply, im a total contradictory.
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